Being a faithful Catholic is hard right now. The Church seems to be imploding, as modernist Catholics push against traditionalism, to the detriment of the Body of Christ.
I have so many questions:
- Why are the Bishops so blind?
- Or do they see, but for some nefarious or unnamed fear, they refuse to embrace the tide of the faithful, whose desire to proper worship and reverence, good and holy things?
- Why are the good, holy priests being punished?
- Why is Traditionalism under attack?
- When traditional priests are bringing in droves of new Catholics and seminarians, while modernist priests are limping along with failing numbers, why isn’t there a move towards encouraging ALL priests to learn and offer the Traditional Latin Mass, in the Old Rite?
Here in Germany we drive an hour to an SSPX parish to be surrounded by faithful Catholics and good, orthodox priests offering the Old Rite. Back home, it was 1.5 hours away to achieve the same end. I’ve spoken to so many other faithful Catholics who drive long distances to get to a TLM. Why is there such a desert for traditionalism?
When you start to look at the history of the last 60 years, there’s a lot there that gives you pause. Popes have been warning about Masons infiltrating the Church for years. Masons themselves stated that they have a 100+ year game plan and can be patient. One man, Bugnini, made the Novus Ordo come to be, where “all stumbling blocks for Protestants were stripped” (not direct quote). Why would we ever take the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass and strip it for heretics? Rather, we must continue to keep it Heavenly and pray that Protestants will see the error of their ways and seek the true Holy of Holies.
We know the experiment of the Novus Ordo has failed, or perhaps it succeeded in the eyes of the Masons. 80% of “Catholics” in America do not believe in Christ’s True Presence, Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity in the Eucharist? Why would they? We no longer are required to kneel to receive, to put ourselves in a humble position as the Bread of Heaven is placed on our tongue, by consecrated hands. As a Catholic, we receive Jesus in our hands, as a cracker, many walking off without popping Jesus into their mouths. Does this queue line with hands outstretched invoke reverence or true belief?
What about the preaching? I’m a cradle Catholic and most of the homilies I’ve received in person were kumbaya, Jesus loves you, you are wonderful. The “fire and brimstone” as lukewarm Catholics call it, had ceased. But what does that do when you have the faithful sitting in the pews sinning? There is no fear. I speak from personal experience with this. The Church’s teachings on morality and sexuality were seen as a soft guideline. I had no idea growing up what mortal sin was or that I could lose Heaven, beyond something atrocious like abortion. But even then, most Catholics seem to think that that belief is also “personal” without any requirement to stand up against the slaughter of the unborn and the lifelong damage it causes to the mother, whether she is aware of this or not.
Most of the time I sit here confused, praying to Jesus for clarity. And then, last May, I came across Fr Altman. He was the very first priest I’d heard preach in a strong, yet hopeful, manner. As Covid nonsense raged around us and Catholic Churches locked their doors to the faithful (I sat outside the tabernacle one day in my car and just sobbed – how could the Bishops do that to us?), I heard Fr Altman take the Gospel and other Scripture and weave it into a message of hope and strength, with clarity and conviction. I felt renewed as a Catholic that was losing her trust in a Church that seemed unwilling to lead in a storm.
And I found more priests. Fr Heilman, Fr Kirby, and others (please share your favorites below) were also speaking strong truth and the fruits were evident: their parishioners were transitioning to more orthodox ways of worshipping, more modest and reverent attire, the numbers were increasing, as was the giving. Faithful Catholics want to support parishes where the priest is acting truly as a shepherd, as a father. No one wants a weak father that won’t protect you against the wolves.
And now, as I write this, that same priest, Fr Altman, has been stripped of all privileges pertaining to his priesthood. He has become a white martyr by the very same Bishop who he spoke so lovingly and respectfully towards during this past year of chaos. We knew it might happen, but the faithful who love Fr Altman prayed and hoped and wrote letters and supported financially. Yet still, he was stripped for being “ineffective” and “divisive.” Jesus states that he came to separate brother from brother, father from son, two against three. The Truth is divisive – you either accept it completely (Orthodox Catholicism and actual science), or you deceive yourself with relativism and live a confused, erring, and broad-path life. All priests are divisive when they speak Truth because the world is not moral, it is not Catholic. It’s confused and base and lost and needing a voice crying out in the wilderness of our modern lives. And ineffective? Are you kidding me? As I stated above, these traditional priests have led blossoming, booming parishes where parishioners are being fed and thriving in their spiritual lives and in their vocations.
Now, all of this said, we must not lose hope. God is working on this in ways we cannot see. I do pray for the Bishops’ conversions, for the scales to fall from their eyes. But a hardened heart is not easily softened. If the Jewish leaders of Jesus’s day could not recognize God Himself among them, then it shouldn’t surprise us that Catholic leaders would have that same problem, choosing to follow worldly endeavors instead of seeking Christ first. Pride is a very powerful vice and one that all Christians must battle until the end.
So what can we do when we feel lost?
- We can write letters to our bishops. I know that there’s a certain demographic that complains often about strong fathers in our midst. We need to outvoice them. It’s work, but it’s holy work.
- Pray! Offer your Rosary, Chaplet, and other formal prayers
- Sacrifice – fasting is a whole separate topic but as Mother Mary has consistently stated, we must fast and pray together. God Himself said so (Mark 9:29 RSV).
- Mortify yourself – pray the Rosary on your knees, go without a treat, work on your holiness and detachment from the world.
- Consecrate yourself to Jesus through Mary. This is one of the most important acts you can do to move your spiritual life forward. You can watch my video here about how to do this.
- Work on being a holy person – get to the Sacraments often, learn the Faith, share the Faith. Be meek and humble of heart. Study virtue.
- Understand spiritual warfare. Read The Anti-Mary Exposed, listen to Fr Ripperger. Don’t be afraid to fight, if the fight comes to you, and pray prayers of protection. Demons can affect your emotions – they’re going to make you feel hopeless or despair. Recognizing and renouncing this is necessary to continue to walk in hope.
We are Christians. Christ is our Hope. The Catholic Church is the ONLY Church that has Jesus Christ. The Church has gone through so many heresies of the past, Jansenism being the most recent. Modernism, this lukewarm, fluffy, soft, warm Catholicism that risks souls is our heresy of the day. We must pray and fight and never lose hope.
I need to hear these words as much as you may. It’s easy to despair. But when that happens, run to Mother Mary. Ask her to hide you in her mantle, to keep you close. Or run to Jesus Christ as a child, let Him wrap His Arms around you and comfort you. Our only objective in life is to get to Heaven, to become saints. Anything else is a distraction. Some of us are called to fight publicly; some to raise their children quietly at home, exuding virtue for others to witness. Whatever God calls you to, He will give you the grace, through Mother Mary, to accomplish this.
“Pray, hope, and don’t worry.” – Padre Pio
Worry is futile and counter-productive. Worry only comes from Satan. If you’re really upset, pray the Surrender Novena. It’s incredibly powerful. I think we could all use that at this point.

Fr. Altman’s last message
Please listen and pray for all good, holy priests who are being silenced. The light will expose the darkness. Click Here
Every time I feel despair, God simply reminds me of what St. Peter said when Jesus said to the twelve, “Do you also wish to go away?” and Peter answered Him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life”. There’s nowhere for me to go. Mother Church is the church Jesus established on earth. So, I’m staying and fighting, praying and hoping, evangelising and setting an example by God’s grace. Blind scribes and Pharisees, leading the blind into the pit? Not on my watch.
P.S. it’s faithful and beautiful women like you, Laura, that makings traditional Catholicism appealing. When I see your joy and humility in your obedience to and faithfulness in the Church, I look, and I say, “I want what she’s got!” So keep being a faithful and beautiful Catholic woman for us young Catholics.
Love from England 😀 !
Dearest Laura. You are the person who gifted my husband and me with the truth as taught by Fr. Altman. I weeped when I finished reading your post. What’s happening to our mother church is absolutely unconscionable! What will WE do to protect and defend her from the ravaging demons? How can we do this while remaining at peace? We know the answer!!!! We have the peace that surpasses “understanding”. While our precious church is burning and our country is crumbling, we will stand strong! We will speak truth, just as Fr. Altman has done! We have the FULL ARMOR OF GOD! Through 60 years of white bread Catholicism we have learned to acquiesce to non-Catholic teachings. We have raised our children in this environment! They, now adults, have watered it down even more for their children. Prayer will change them. Let us take the example from Saint Monica who prayed for her worldly son, Saint Augustine. We must RISE UP! God bless you!
Dearest Laura. You are the person who gifted my husband and me with the truth as taught by Fr. Altman. I weeped when I finished reading your post. What’s happening to our mother church is absolutely unconscionable! What will WE do to protect and defend her from the ravaging demons? How can we do this while remaining at peace? We know the answer!!!! We have the peace that surpasses “understanding”. While our precious church is burning and our country is crumbling, we will stand strong! We will speak truth, just as Fr. Altman has done! We have the FULL ARMOR OF GOD! Through 60 years of white bread Catholicism we have learned to acquiesce to non-Catholic teachings. We have raised our children in this environment! They, now adults, have watered it down even more for their children. Prayer will change them. Let us take the example from Saint Monica who prayed for her worldly son, Saint Augustine. We must RISE UP! God bless you!
Father Mark Goring is 👌👌👌 superb. I love him, he speaks truth. Our closest TLM is over 4 hours away which is just not feasible. However, our parish has brought back communion rails and you can kneel if you choose (which I do). Ladies are starting to veil as well. Our pastor did a 6 weeks series on the Eucharist and how people don’t believe in the true presence of Christ in the Eucharist. He gets fired up. It is unbelievable what I see in the pews sometimes but all I can do is pray and teach my daughter better and do my best to be reverent and love the Lord.
I love Fr Mark as well. He’s incredible humble yet speaks truth. I’m so thankful your parish is moving in the right direction. Ryan was commenting that if they brought back communion rails and only allowed communion on the tongue by a priest, those two action would do wonders for our Church.
Thank you, Laura, for courageously sharing this story and vulnerably sharing your deepest thoughts and meditations around this atrocity.
The fruit of my prayer and meditation around this controversy are as follows. While this decree around Fr. Altman was expected, it is more severe than we thought. I actually know someone from his diocese, and the fear mongering campaign locally around him by the local authorities (priests and bishops) has existed for some time as this person thought he was a renegade like truly deformed and heretical priests of the past. And, it seems Fr. Altman has received a “sentence” akin to that of predator priests and bishops, not unlike someone would receive for a true crime. Functionally, he is essentially on house arrest and must report monthly to the diocesan officials like someone would to their parole officer while being on probation, unable to work and unable to leave the state. Given that this sentence has been delivered in a like manner as a punitive injunction, my revelation is that Fr. Altman should challenge it like a legal manner: mount a civil case against his bishop and diocese for their unlawful detention of him, suing for his freedom and rights. Is this solution radical? Yes, absolutely. But why should someone who has done nothing wrong in the eyes of God and of the state be sentenced like a vicious criminal? We know ontologically and spiritually it’s because the authorities over Fr. Altman are faithless cowards who are willing fools for the devil and modernity. So, in turn, I will be watching closely to see if Fr. Altman along with his sober advisors, including Archbishop Vigano now, will take such action in the following weeks and months. The story is NOT over.
Two other points: 1) why does Jimmy Martin, SJ run free with papal praise while actual servants of God remain effectively incarcerated? See the Gospels and Epistles for clarity.
2) Sin and death must NEVER prevail. I believe throughly in the “New Catacombs” teaching and advocacy ability for Fr. Altman and others. The growing discontent MUST form a union of holy priests and bishops, and by extension, we must pray for the unification of the Trad right.
May God richly bless you my beloved
Having just lost two more parish members to COVID this week (a mother and daughter), I obviously don’t share your dismay. However, the divisions in the Church sadden me greatly.
I actually attended our parish retreat at a local RC Monastery and we discussed the Church’s history, the evolution and the divisions through the centuries. I choose hope and will pray for all my brothers and sisters in Christ that we may come together again.
I wish TLM were not so “uncommon” in so many areas! I’m in the SE of the USA and the TLM is only offered locally on rare occasions in local parishes. I think Catholics have demonstrated a desire and demand that would fully support TLM in many, may areas! I literally would have to drive hours to attend a TLM regularly. To be clear I have no problem attending the NO Mass weekly, but I would like to have the option and I’d like my fellow Catholics to have that option as well.
Let us pray for one another and our Church.
PS I’m so glad you continue to share here, Laura. I have sent several friends to your blog as well as to your past YT videos as they have blessed me and continue to do so.
I try to be the best Catholic I can be, and I am always faced with so many challenges, it’s hard to keep up.Most of my challenges is about speaking up for my Faith. I’m not good at defending it as I should.
Hi, Laura. I really appreciate Father Mike Schmitz, who delivers a N.O. Mass, yet with great love and devotion, and real admonishment to all of us to participate in the Mass. I think you might appreciate his ministry, even if it very different from a Latin Rite Mass. Gott segne dich in Deutschland!
Hi, Laura. I really appreciate Father Mike Schmitz, who delivers a N.O. Mass, yet with great love and devotion, and real admonishment to all of us to participate in the Mass. I think you might appreciate his ministry, even if it very different from a Latin Rite Mass. Gott segne dich in Deutschland!